I could never get away from the pull towards living life fully surrendered to the God I had met in childhood. I still knew Him, kind of. At least I thought maybe I did. (Spoiler alert: He knew me the whole time. He created me, after all) He knew how I needed to see Him working. I just didn’t know it yet.
Category: Testimony
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My Search for Meaning
Coming from a modest but comfortable background, I was never spoiled by material things, but I never really knew what true poverty was either. Life was often mundane, so I found myself escaping through imagination and comics and later through horror and suspense novels. My parents had taken me to church when I was a child, but as soon as I was allowed to, I stopped attending, rejecting what I considered to be a dead religion.
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Cherished Daughter
For the past several years God has been turning my perception of Him upside down. My devotion grew with a willingness to go anywhere He sent me, but God was showing me that He wanted to draw me close right where I was.
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Beauty For Ashes
I thought I had everything I needed to be happy. The house, the job, the car and then, a baby. Yet I still felt sad and carried a lot of negative emotions, but didn’t know why.